So Sad So How?
Jul. 20th, 2021 01:51 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
pineauraHow do people do it? How do people make the sad parts of the stories? How do they not immediately come up with AUs or other settings where nothing bad is gonna harm the characters and they're just gonna be okay to live?
I have plenty of sad stuff in my stories, stuff that breaks my heart over and over again, but I can't stop myself from going "okay but I'll just also put you in another place where you won't have that experience because you deserve that chance" afterwards. I can't like look them in the eye and say:
That's all you'll get to have - the brevity, the frailty, the untimely. That you'll have moments where there's love and life and hope and sincerity, but it will all go away in one heartbeat. And I am sorry. I am sorry that this is a story where that is all true. And would you be okay with that?
But I tell myself I make so many stories. Limitations aren't really a thing here because they're mine and I can play in my sandbox however I desire. So I can make another story, as many stories as I'd like, in fact, where these unfortunate characters can have something else. They can live a different tale to the one they were born in.
The heartbreak remains in me only in those moments because I know, but they won't because it's another time, another place, another chance. And maybe there's some similarities, but it won't be the same and sometimes that's all that's needed. Yet I cannot keep things as they are originally meant to be. I want these characters to experience more than they get in the one tale and maybe we all just need something like that in our own lives and that's why I explore this through my own characters, through my own stories in as many tales as my heart desires. I don't know how others can keep it to the one. To say that it's only in this story you'll be, the only experience you'll have and that's that.
If your heart breaks, do you not desire the means to find a way to mend it, too?
I have plenty of sad stuff in my stories, stuff that breaks my heart over and over again, but I can't stop myself from going "okay but I'll just also put you in another place where you won't have that experience because you deserve that chance" afterwards. I can't like look them in the eye and say:
That's all you'll get to have - the brevity, the frailty, the untimely. That you'll have moments where there's love and life and hope and sincerity, but it will all go away in one heartbeat. And I am sorry. I am sorry that this is a story where that is all true. And would you be okay with that?
But I tell myself I make so many stories. Limitations aren't really a thing here because they're mine and I can play in my sandbox however I desire. So I can make another story, as many stories as I'd like, in fact, where these unfortunate characters can have something else. They can live a different tale to the one they were born in.
The heartbreak remains in me only in those moments because I know, but they won't because it's another time, another place, another chance. And maybe there's some similarities, but it won't be the same and sometimes that's all that's needed. Yet I cannot keep things as they are originally meant to be. I want these characters to experience more than they get in the one tale and maybe we all just need something like that in our own lives and that's why I explore this through my own characters, through my own stories in as many tales as my heart desires. I don't know how others can keep it to the one. To say that it's only in this story you'll be, the only experience you'll have and that's that.
If your heart breaks, do you not desire the means to find a way to mend it, too?
