Holding Back

[pineaura]

Sometimes it's really hard when you know you have to come into something after it's debut because you know you're gonna like it, but you have to wait. You have to block and mute and avoid as much as possible just so you get as much of the experience for yourself. And of course once I get to get into it I find myself struggling to hold back because I want to see all the things even though I'm not done yet. I tell myself "you've waited this long. you can wait until you're done", but ohhh golly can it be hard.

You'd think I'd be used to this by now since it's actually rare for me to get stuff on release. I often have to wait months to years just to get my hands on things and experience them for myself. And I'm pretty patient. That is, until I do get the opportunity for myself and part way through I find that I'm having to remind myself to wait until I'm done before I venture into seeing what's out there. Hahaha