Fandom Scene Shift

[pineaura]

I will concede that tumblr still has a fandom scene in a way that I haven't seen elsewhere. But I really want to see that elsewhere and I have no idea if that's gonna happen or when.

Yes, this is me having a bout of disappointment after trying to look up for things I'm into in places I'm at and coming up with little. Some of these are small fandoms so it's expected, but the bigger fandoms? Wha??? How is it possible to have so little that comes up in the search when I know the base is huge?

Pifo is young and still a work in progress so I can understand why things can be quieter there, but other places? I dunno. I get that there are limitations with each platform, but it's wild to me how it felt like I could find so many places in the beginning of me using the internet yet now struggle to find them in such capacity. I get that things have changed, but it's still weird to me to have only like specific scenes happening in one or two places while it struggles having a foothold elsewhere.

I don't wanna feel the pressure of having to fill the gap solo on places like Pifo. One could argue that it helps to contribute to "paving the way", but it never really feels like that ever for me. Just makes it seem like I'm trying to own it or something. Also, I'm tired and dealing with health issues that it's just unreasonable to even try. I haven't even been able to draw in weeks now it feels outside of one (one!) tiny sketch and that was hard. So yeah.

And when it comes to fandom stuff that is something I lowkey want to have some kind of support for. When it's my ocs that's all purely just for me, you know? I don't know how to fully explain it. Don't get me wrong. I love when others enjoy my original work; it gives me an experience that nothing else can compare. But fandom is about community in a way, right? And even though I don't really do fandom per se, don't consider myself particularly a part of it in a way that others proudly show, but not receiving anything, even a simple like, for something that's meant to have a connection to so many other people does lowkey bum me out. Even if the fanart I do is mostly for my enjoyment, there's always that part of me that feels like others would enjoy it to. So when it's silent it just makes me feel like it's a "no you don't belong here why are you even trying" kind of thing.

Anyways, would really love the scene to show up on Pifo for the stuff I'm into I guess. Maybe one day _(; c 」∠ )_